Bittersweet? What?

Well, I'm sitting out by the pool- on one of my last days at my apartment and in Florida for school. I have been so excited and so ready to move back home, but as it comes closer I'm starting to feel... sad? Not sad because I'm going home necessarily, but sad because I am saying goodbye to a pretty big part of my life. A part of my life that definitely had its ups and downs- but also a part that I would not take back or change. Looking back, I don't regret my time in Florida whatsoever. Although I dreaded some days and longed for home at times- it really was and is a place I will look back on fondly for the most part. I met some incredible friends and made some amazing memories that I will hold close to my heart forever. Moving across the country away from everyone and everything I knew was not easy, but it has made a positive impact on who I am today... and although I am cutting my time here a semester short due to my classes being online next semester- I know this is not actually a goodbye, it's really a see you later. I will definitely be back to visit my people, FGCU, and beautiful Fort Myers in general. Another thing I want to touch on is how I've felt this semester compared to how I felt during my first year at FGCU. Last year I was completely online, therefore I only had my roommates and whoever they'd introduce me with as "friends". I was alone a lot, but a better term to describe how I really felt was loneliness. I was super lonely last year and it made me not enjoy my time at FGCU nearly as much. I spent more time longing to go home rather than making the most of it. This past semester, I found myself still alone a bit- but I wouldn't consider it being a lonely feeling. I made new friends in my in-person classes and I spent more time going out and doing things rather than being cooped up in my room alllll the time. I still spent a good amount of time alone, but it was usually because I would say no to certain plans due to me actually just wanting to relax and focus on my own needs. I dreaded being alone last year and even this past summer I hated it due to me being alone with no choice (lonely) my first year at FGCU. This semester, I regained my love (for the most part...) for alone time by making sure to balance it out with going out and doing things with friends. Now I am really just babbling and probably giving you word vomit at this point- but I think you guys get what I'm saying. Moral of the story is- things don't always turn out the way they are supposed to but life is really what you make it. Do things you love and know the difference between having 'alone time' and being lonely.